Entry 3

So what did I fall in love with today-today is a good day for this prompt cause the day has been a bit overwhelming; so what rays of light came through my busy world; morning woke to a kitty on my pillow ok the one beside me; that brought a smile to my lips; he'd let me sleep through the night; the dogs woke me when one of them heard something in the middle of the night; oh praise the dog chorus; one cannot sing without the other; so I guess my day began brightly with sweet thoughts rising from the sight of a slumbering cat; nice muggy walk; not bothersome, both pups were easy; ok, I did hit the ground running when I got to school; yea, I can always get my grading done sooner, but I do feel like I'm on top of it this six weeks; so many snags; can't figure if it's me or the girls; me trying to help the girls which only causes me to run around trying to remember what they need to get to me; to I want their work more than they want to give me their work? Rachel's lesson went well in that it allowed me to hear from so many girls as they wrote and conferenced; they really do sound like writers; seem to have the habits of writers; the lesson was fine, not perfect, but fine; seemed to go better than when I taught it a little later; of course I was teaching and checking in for missed work; film, eh, what can I find that went well in film; a few questions I was able to help the girls solve? I don't know not terribly productive; certainly not 100%; do I have to always strive for 100%; sometimes I think the girls would like a lower key teacher; I'm easy in film; friendly in advisory; but I do take my language arts classes seriously; poor girls; did manage to verify grades before our meeting; nothing surprising; our meeting discussing the girls at least reminded me that I am just like all other teachers; I guess I hold the bar a little bit higher for myself; don't see that changing; so back to 3 things; what have I fallen love with today; I loved walking to a cat sleeping on the next pillow; I loved waking knowing that he had not disturbed my sleep; I feel in love with the chance to hear the girls talk about their writing; I loved that they sound like writers themselves that they take themselves seriously; they have developed habits of writers; I guess once again I have had the chance to fall in love with my human side; fall in love with the me who is fallible; know that I try hard; know that I am not always as good as I wish to be, and I know it; know that from time to time reality does slip in for me and recognize that my moments of being truly human are just like those of the people around me; maybe they like me more when I fall off my pedestal of teacher aiming to be the best; I wonder if my students would like me more if they could see my hair hang down instead of always being the woman who is on; who is on her game and on their you know whats; I guess I should say that I love that writing helped me loosen up; the prompt from Georgia Heard's Writing Toward Home says that every time we fall in love something that before was closed inside us opens and creativity begins to flow.

10/6/08